wow

drama.



spring break is next week
but a bunch of kinda shitty things have happened
and i has no motiviation to do my aaahhhrtt
it.s kind of on the back burner right now.

my anti depressants are not anti depressing me.
i feel like i can barely get out of bed
let alone function if i do

like in color concept class today. i read the hue/value/chroma requirements 8 times or so

it just did not click.
seemed like some other language.

i hate college right now.
after the hospital mess i am behind. way behind. & still sick even though my medicine is out :\

i have
gotten confused about everyone

ben [bestfriend1]
i miss. does he miss me.?

tim [bestfriend2]
is too h'd out to notice that he is fucking up his life and worrying everone on the side..

nate [old likerboy]
moved. not to pa but to kentucky?

james [old boyfriend]
asked me out. & still loves me

but who do i love
him
but we are messy
sometimes i feel like i love no one

it is a bad feeling

it makes me feel like a bad person