omgosh sick again

i haves a sinus infection of doom
and my throat feels like it is constantly on fire

ps i am not a firebreather :[

and am too lazy to type more than a few x.s to entertain you.

(xxx) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(?) smoked anything else
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car

(x) been in love
(x?) been dumped
(?) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight

(x) snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date

(x) lied to a friend
(me chels & steph used to think mr. clark was cute) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die

(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar

(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert

(xxxxxxx) been in an abusive relationship
(xx) taken painkillers
(:]) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x burr) made a snow angel

( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x :o) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(xxx) fallen asleep at work/school

( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake

(x) been tickled
(x?) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(xxx) been misunderstood
(wtf) pet a reindeer/goat

(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(xxx) been in a car accident

(x) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight

(x) hated the way you look
(xx) witnessed a crime
(XD) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
() been obsessed with post-it notes
() squished barefoot through the mud
(xxxxxxx) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x!) played cops and robbers
(xxxxxx) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(:]) sung karaoke
(i made them a happy face) paid for a meal with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(xxxxxxx ahaha) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(xxx) kissed in the rain
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) had a wish come true
(uhh no.) humped a monkey
( ) screamed "erection" in class
( ) ate dog food
(?) told a complete stranger you loved them
(xxxxxxxxxxx) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress

( ) fucked in a park
(x) fucked in the bathoom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) kissed a fish

(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(xxxx) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(xxxxxxxx) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(prob) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(all the time!) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken fight
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(xxxx) been easily amused
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house

wow

drama.



spring break is next week
but a bunch of kinda shitty things have happened
and i has no motiviation to do my aaahhhrtt
it.s kind of on the back burner right now.

my anti depressants are not anti depressing me.
i feel like i can barely get out of bed
let alone function if i do

like in color concept class today. i read the hue/value/chroma requirements 8 times or so

it just did not click.
seemed like some other language.

i hate college right now.
after the hospital mess i am behind. way behind. & still sick even though my medicine is out :\

i have
gotten confused about everyone

ben [bestfriend1]
i miss. does he miss me.?

tim [bestfriend2]
is too h'd out to notice that he is fucking up his life and worrying everone on the side..

nate [old likerboy]
moved. not to pa but to kentucky?

james [old boyfriend]
asked me out. & still loves me

but who do i love
him
but we are messy
sometimes i feel like i love no one

it is a bad feeling

it makes me feel like a bad person