i just read this thing

that says if you fall seven times stand up eight

i.m so constantly working on that; i think my friends should too
i am tired of saying nice things to people and getting negativity
i hate how when i tell my best friend he is a good person he disagrees. he is so much better than i might ever be yet he thinks i am the one who is good
if you ask for my [probably terrible] advice, and then do nothing with it much less give input on how you do expect whatever situation to get better
i just don.t get what you want from me

i also hate it how people go to such lengths to become my friend just to totally fuck whatever straightness i had in my life at that time. one my friend was clean until like two days ago. i am clean. i don.t wanna miss anything. another of my friends is telling me that if i take my medications it.s bad... another friend is being all weight obsessed and askhflhsf i could go on but the rest is all disgusting so screw it


also mindfuck
my real cat is sooo trying to murder my stuffed cat atm

listen to

handlebars by flobots.

my brain

is a hole

word on the street is

you or someone you know may have an std. sick.

call me up before you.re dead

we can make some plans instead

we won.t stop until somebody calls the cops
&& even then we.ll start again & just pretend thattttt

nothingeverhappened.

ALLiWANTEDWASAPEPSi

that.s what i feel like

everyone keeps telling me their problems but i have my own right now and no one to tell them to

don.t get me wrong, i love helping people


but fuck. where is the balance>?

i am going insane

eeee teee phoen hoemmmm

topic: suicide. yet another person from highschool...

i just found out from my friend dane
luckily however this person is not dead<3

why are we all so disjointed when everything is connected?
we can.t possibly be that fucked up, we can.t


i am not nearly this person.s best friend or anything
in fact i probably annoy him

but this person has been through a lot.
everyone has after abby died.
everyone is just acting like they.re over it

this person does not realize how much they are going to help people after they get out of college
what they do will be amazing

this person has so much potential and heart

now instead
they might have to go to jail for various charges involving the day all of this happened

we are all close but we refuse to admit it
and we just push each other away to the same old lonely fates

what.the.fuck.world.are.we.in?


so i won.t do this anymore.


get a hold of someone
the positive could surprise you +++++

video killed what we once stood for

who we gonna look to now>?
if these walls could speak
i wouldn.t tell them anything
don.t ask me, don't ask me

if these walls could speak i wouldn.t tell them anything

press eject, and give me the tape
if you know what.s good for you

ghetto blasting on the basement floor.

SXY NEVAR LFTTT.

sxynvrlft.ytmnd.com

why__________

do i constantly lose my lighter[s........]

did that laydee hit my car in richmond

can i never decide who i want to date

can i never decide if i even want to date anyone

do i have so many things to read on myspace when i.ve only been gone for like a week

do i always look down in that window and try to catch my neighbor watching teh pr0n.

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